Well for once I am awake at the time I am suppose to be dressed and make up on. I have the bare minimum of make up on because I don’t feel like doing my eye make up. Let’s see if I can keep it going. Hopefully.

As I lay here just getting home from picking up something I left at a guy’s house whom I’ve been seeing lately and it’s been going on for a couple months now. He pissed me off to the core because he doesn’t even say anything to me and I was also in the ER today by the way, then slams the door in my face and that just made things worse. 

I hate when the bitch side of me comes out especially when its someone I do genuinely like and care for but all he cared about which I understand its important but he only cared about work. Nothing for me 

I admit though he does respect me and I have had hard relationships with guys that were too immature for me and wasted my time and emotions. I haven’t had an exclusive serious relationship for four years now. My last relationship ended in horror, he overdosed on heroin and I woke up to his dead body in the morning.. My last memory of him is his body being loaded into the coroner van. Then I went and got drunk for four months. 

To those who are wondering if I do heroin I don’t. I have too many medical issues to do anything like that. I smoke weed but medicinally and not heavily. 

Anyways, other than that I was with a guy before him for a long time too but that was a toxic relationship because I was dating a narcissist. Most draining thing ever. 

So as you can see my track record with guys is utter shit. I’m not insecure I am just tired of this hook up culture we millennials decided to do. I can’t believe how many guys pressure me into having sex with them. It doesn’t happen most of the time but guys don’t like the word no, a lot more now these days. How they expect you to be okay with giving oral to them when that is a very intimate thing to do with someone. I see sex as baby making. I don’t think of it as an important thing to have a amazing sex life. 

What are your guy’s thoughts on it?

Due to some set backs I had to post pone the Kylie Jenner project. Stay tuned because I am spending all weekend trying to change my habits or add habits. One new thing is that I adopted two adorable kittens. Splash and Hollywood is their names! Pictures to come soon!

Wow once again another year is passing by too quickly. I decided to do a special project this summer. I am going to follow the daily schedule, fashion, and lifestyle of young billionaire Kylie Jenner. Everyday I will be blogging and posting on instagram. I will probably start once I am out of the hospital though, oh yeah, I got admitted due to an infection but once I am up and running again I am doing the Kylie Jenner project.

Samantha

I am starting to have a lot going on now that my medical issues are way more under control than they were. I have been going for runs/walks to actually tone and lose weight! I finally gained weight and no longer look sickly and took skinny. I am studying for my driver’s license too! I also decided to get my GED; they made the GED test a lot harder! You have to know physics, space science, geometry, etc. Before it was just algebra and basic biology. I am so mad. I went to Barnes and Noble and spent $50 on a workbook and prep study guide book. Both three inches thick.

Then in the fall I will be going to Pierce community college to do their horse science program while doing general ed core. Then in the spring I will be trying out for their cheer leading team.

I started a reading list too!